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My Thoughts

I share my thoughts while I write here..

Tuesday, Jan 5 2010
I am so sorry for not posting more.. I actually about 2 months ago found that I had locked myself out of this site. I could not for the life of me find my password!

I am back.. Let me get my house cleaned up and the turkey soup on the stove to long term cook and I will start to write and post again!

I have actually missed posting here.

You can also see my more up to date life at were I post pictures of the house I moved into and started to redo when I escaped!

Ok... So you know the end of the story was a happy ending.. possibly! But I won't even tell you how much I was blessed and exactly what I went thru... You have to read that... It truly is a miracle that I survived!

Love you all!

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Mat Kearney and I are becoming really good friends. He doesn't even know it yet.. But his Nothing Left To Lose album is priceless!

Thank you Mat for your song writing! God has really blessed you!

Friday, May 22, 2009

It's interesting - I seem to cry mostly when I am writing about the happy memories. Like with my mother.. or my daughter's memories. The bad ones seem to be a very distant memory! Almost as if they are someone else's. Thank goodness for this journal I kept.

Saturday, May 16, 2009 

Some have asked me - If he was so controlling how did you get away with writing all you did?

Great question - English was his second language. I often not only had to read the menu's in restuarants but it took him along time to read books in English. The one thing I learned early on was that he could barely read my hand writing and if I wrote really bad... He couldn't read it at all. Hmmm.. Maybe I should scan in one of my journal pages. I can barely read them myself, 20 years later.

The last part of our marriage with computer technology - I password protected the file and named em different names. He never looked. Thank goodness, my darling daughter and writing were the only thing I believe that held me together.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Passing It On...

I need your help! I need to know how do I spread the word? How do I get info out about this blog/book?

I'm wondering if your reading this and have any ideas.. Please let me know. I would be so honored if you could link me to your site or blog and or pass the word about this site on.....

Any help would be so greatly appreciated!

Have I told you all thank you lately for all the help you have been lending me? I so greatly appreciate it. You're all a blessing in my life!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Thoughts While Writing

I contemplated for a long time whether to just keep this blog just the chapters.. Or to actually write about what is going on while I do write this.

Today, I will start to post 'Thoughts While Writing' Who knows where they will take us... One thing I know for sure.. Is I would love to have you all comment on any of this. If something hits you.. Or you have a question.. don't stay silent!!

Lord knows I am rarely silent! My loving husband will agree with that!

Here is my thought. When I write about 'my husband' in this book.. I have a horrible pain each time I do. I feel like I am being totally disrespectful to my now wonderful, loving husband. I've expressed this to him. He must think I am silly... But that's how it feels.

I am so blessed that he encourages me to get this out on 'cloud' paper. While I know the world needs to know what happens to woman in this situation, and someone may gain some insight to what happens... I want the world to know - MY HUSBAND is not the man in these Chapters. My husband is the most loving and caring man I have ever met!

I love you! I am so blessed!